Two Months Gone.

I was a very lost 18 year old girl when I walked into cattlemen’s and met you for the first time. All these years later I haven’t thrown out the shirt I wore the night I met you and colleen because it meant something to me although I haven’t worn it. You stood up and gave me a hug. I didn’t know my identity or what I wanted in my life in that season, but I was welcomed right away.

Two years later I wasn’t even engaged to your son and you paid for me to stay with you and your family while your son was having multiply brain surgeries. I remember some conversations, I remember being cared for when your son was in a rough spot. You just extended that care and generosity out to me.

The following year I became a Hudson. That came with big shoes because everywhere I went people knew who you were. They would talk to me and say hi to me and I would have to ask Caleb who they were haha but they all loved you.

Then you became a grandpa to my own kids. This is probably the hardest thing for me to see is my husband loose his father and my kids not understand that you’re not coming down anymore. You are definitely missed and I am forever grateful for that first hug over 10 years ago. In these last 10 years I have grown and I am no longer that lost teenager. I hope I carry your families name well, and I hope one day I leave this earth with the positive impact that you have. It’s incredible to see the amount of people that are stepping out with stories and love for you.

I’m thankful that every greeting started with a hug and every goodbye ended with a hug and some joke. Our last hug was as good as the first one…. my heart is broken and you are missed.

xoxo kymberly


Caleb’s 30!

Caleb you are the big 3 0 !

Happy birthday!

I don’t know how today will be for you, but know I’m here for you. Weeks ago I planned a surprise party that you would’ve been truly surprised at, but that didn’t get to happen. Your parents were supposed to fly in today while you were at work for another surprise, but that isn’t going to happen either.

It sucks all these plans that were made for such a special birthday and they don’t get to happen.

I hope your birthday is still okay after this crazy year. There has been so many ups and downs the year of you being 29. 30 can only be better. It has to be better.

The growing you can do this year in a new place is un measurable. The learning from a new work environment and new people all around can bring fresh perspective.

I’m excited for this year. You get to meet your new baby. You get to start fresh in a new area. You get to make new memories and traditions.

But it’s okay to not be okay.

This year will probably be very hard also. And we’re all here for you for that. The first birthday you won’t get a call from your dad 😢 I’m really sorry about that. The first Christmas without your dad 😢 I’m really sorry about that. The first everything that is going to come 😢 I just wish I could take the hurt away.

He was very proud of you. He was a great dad that you get to always share his legacy and you also have so much of him in you, so you’ll live out a lot also!

Happy birthday Caleb!

The day is yours for whatever you want to do!

xoxo kymberly