Waterfall Mom. 

It took a couple months for me to get the hang of being a mom. Learning N and what he needed and when. Also to learn my roll as a mom. The selfless part came natural to me. I fell in love with a little baby and would do anything for him. And not that I want to be selfish, but I am learning I need to take care of me also. 
A friend of mine at bible study gave this beautiful picture that I am a teared waterfall. If the very top pool isn’t filled, then there isn’t any water to fall into the pools below. How am I supposed to fill others if I am empty? 
Another friend of mine for months has been encouraging me to find something that is mine again and press into that. Just to really take care of myself all around. If I’m taking care of me then I’m going to be a better wife, mom, daughter and friend because I’m being filled and able to pour into others. 

With that being said, finding alone time as a mom of two is a lot harder for me than a mom of one. I do good being a mom of two. That transition of taking two everywhere and getting them fed, dressed, and naps, with little meltdowns or tears, I do good. A lot of days I’m really proud of myself! But I’ve been struggling as to when to find time to sit at the feet of Jesus and be filled. 

I feel guilty when I hear that other are having this alone quiet time, or coffee time, or even at church when asked if I am having quiet time because it’s so important. I’m not. My day is so busy with little monotonous things that before I know it, it’s 7:00pm and time for baths and bed. 

I love little tips I’ve been told. Or stories of other moms that have had a hard time like me. One mom would put a blanket over her head and the kids knew that was her time with Jesus and they wouldn’t bug her. Another mom had “coffee with Jesus” and her kids left her alone if that coffee was in her hands. Another mom got her time with Christ by doing bible crafts and stories with her kids. 

It is hard to be a mom of little ones and find that time to have for yourself and be filled. Sleep is so important that waking up early is not an option for me when Peyton still gets up 3-4 times a night. So most days I have worship music playing in the house. Then I can stop where I am and sing or dance and my kids love it and do their own thing. 

I also am finding more time this week as my toddler randomly became in love with the movie Trolls. That gives me about an hour once I get P fed set up with something. 

I started doing more bible journaling. I love it. It takes my love of scrapbooking (that I have zero time for) and my need and want to press into Christ and gives me the filling I need so much. I am getting both! Something for me, and time with Jesus. 

I don’t know what I’ll do when Trolls is not a hit anymore haha. Maybe I’ll be blessed and they will nap at the same time! 

I hope if you’re a mom, you find something for you. Something that you love to do and have some time to do it and enjoy it as you go along your day and clean the spot on the floor 15 times and no one notices. I hope you also find a way to sit and breath and take in what God wants to teach you and share with you. And I also hope you don’t feel guilty as I have about not spending quiet time with Jesus. There is grace for us. He knows what we are doing. He sees us clean that spot 15 times! 

Have blessed day! 

xoxo

kymberly

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What did you Learn Today?

Everyday, all day, I repeat myself. 

By the end of the night I’m so tired of talking. 

Today I told Nathan to “wait” and was trying to teach him that he can’t have something right then and there. (Well actually everyday I’m teaching this.)

He is a child that has to get his thoughts out though. You can’t tell him to not interrupt when others are talking because to him, he has the most important thing to say and has to be heard out right that second. 

It’s pretty challenging for me to try and teach him to wait his turn when it comes to talking. 

Then I learned today…. I’m like that. 

Now I’m very aware that my son is my husbands physical clone but my personality clone. It’s actually really funny how he acts exactly like me but looks exactly like his dad! 

Another reason why so many things are challenging to teach him, he’s just like me and I realize I’m needing to change my behavior to set the example for him. But that’s a different post. 

Today I learned that I don’t like the waiting…

I mean who likes to wait? 

I just didn’t think of it in the context of praying. 

I pray for something to change and am just waiting for it to happen right then or at least before I go to bed. Sometimes I’m praying like I have the most important request and I need it answered right then. I can’t wait. I have the most important prayer (which is silly looking at it that way). 

But…. What’s happening in the time that God has me waiting? Why doesn’t he answer my prayer request right then? 

I learned that I need to soak in what he is doing in the waiting time. What he’s teaching me and what I could be learning. And then I thought… “how many times has God repeated himself to me? And asked me to wait?” It blows my mind his patience level he has! 


 xoxo

kymberly 

That Mom. 

Growing up I dreamed of being a mom. And not just any mom, a great mom. Going through college I learned from experience how to talk to a child in a loving way. I didn’t want to be “that mom that yelled at her kids” or “that mom whose kids didn’t listen to her”. Well tonight I felt like I had stared to become “that mom”. 

I can list all the reasons why my patience is egg shell thin, but those are excuses when I look at them through my sons eyes. 

I might be exhausted and don’t know the last time I slept more than 4 hours at a time. I might be frustrated that every time I get my 5 month old to finally nap, my 2 year old yells at her so she wakes up. But those things don’t matter to my two year old when it comes to how I respond to him. 

My sister-in-law has a quality that I really admire. It might be silly to someone, but it’s what I admire most in her and strive to achieve. She constantly talks to my niece and nephew in a calm tone, and talks to them or tries to Understand why they are acting the way they are. And today is her birthday, so shout out to her! Happy birthday!!

This past week my voice has gotten louder and the phrase, “go to your room” has come out of my mouth more than I strive for.

Am I a lazy mom?

What has happened to what I’ve strived for?

Why am I getting so frustrated and letting that control my attitude?

Oh. My. Gosh. I’m “that mom”. 

I just needed a wake up call. My son is acting out because he wants something. Attention is my guess. His sister was born and for 5 months he hasn’t had me to himself. So soon that is going to change and I’ll take him on some mommy/son dates. 

I need to take a breath before I respond to his acting out. I need to ask him why he’s doing what he’s doing. I have been consistent in following through with what I say and winning the battles I choose to fight. 

I think today it just hit me that what I’m doing isn’t working. I need to go back and stop using the word no. I need to explain more. Nathan is very smart, he can understand what is needed of him and understand that he needs to be respectful. 

Being a mom of 2 little ones is hard. Not because my kids are bad or handfuls, but because my time is never my own and being present with both of them on little sleep is hard. 

But I got my wake up call and tomorrow is a new day. I pray Nathan forgives me for not being my best. Time to lower my tone again and communicate with him. 

No longer “that mom” that I didn’t want to be. 

xoxo

kymberly 

Struggle Bus. 

Struggle Bus. 🚌


That’s the ride I’ve been on the last few weeks. 

Two year olds are not a joke. Especially the ones that have an insane vocabulary and are whitty… like the one I have. Who can talk circles around you and tell you all the reasons he doesn’t want to and can’t pick up his toys. It makes your mind jello to where all you do is point to his room because all that talking he just did made you dizzy (Pointing to his room most of the time gets him to do what I originally said before he started talking 500 words a minute).

Two year olds are also hilarious. I get a good laugh from the whitty thIngs Nathan comes up with. 

But the struggle bus comes when I am completely caught off guard and don’t know what to do or how to discipline him. Some days I wish he came with an instruction manual so I knew how to best discipline him in the most effective way so he learns correctly. 

I also spend most of my day repeating the same three things over and over. 

“Don’t unplug that”

“Don’t plug that in”

“Don’t climb on that”

You would think after a year of the same three commands something would stick?! At least maybe one of them!!! 

Also meltdowns. 

Let’s just talk about those… not awesome! I also don’t love all the parents who I ask about meltdowns and they are like, “my toddler doesn’t have them, does yours have a lot of meltdowns, like, behavioral problems?” Really??? No he doesn’t have behavior problems, he’s 2 and gets mad when it’s time for bed or he can’t have a cookie. Then it’s on the floor crying and screaming for a hot minute. But I seriously cannot be the only one who has a toddler with meltdowns right? 

So I’m struggling mainly with finding the best effective way to discipline my toddler. He is an incredible and smart little one. I am very thankful to say he is good in stores and in car rides. He is amazing with his baby sister! He just does not want to listen to some of the rules in the house, like plugging in the lamp to an outlet or climbing on his dresser to open his window 😳🙄. 

That’s my struggle bus rant at the moment. I truly just want to be the best Mom for my kids. I want to raise them correctly and teach them how to listen to direction and be respectful. That there is a time to play and be crazy and a time to listen and follow the rules. 

Saying that, he is only 2. Sometimes I think he’s way older than he is because of his vocabulary and attitude. 

And although he’s keeping me on my toes, and probably giving me grey hair…. I wouldn’t change a thing about him. 

xoxo kymberly 
Picture taken off Pinterest 

The Honest Company. 

So to start this off I want to say that I am NOT an organic mommy or person. But over the last year I have slowly came to love the Honest Company. 

Although I’m not an organic person, I really love the idea of having a son and daughter with such sensitive skin have an option of using pure products. I still try a small amount of everything on them to see if they have a reaction, and so far not one reaction to this brand. I feel good knowing there are so many different products that I can choose from in this brand and there won’t be a rash breakout. 

Do you guys use The Honest Company? 

I honestly feel that their diapers are over priced to just throw away. I bought a box on clearence once to try them out. They worked real well but I wasn’t more impressed with them than I was Pampers. Although the Honest diapers are pretty cute! 

The wipes are nice! I like them a lot. In all honesty I feel the same as I do with the diapers. They go in the trash so fast and I don’t find them more impressive than pampers sensitive wipes or huggies wipes. 


With the diapers and wipes, if we had more money then I would buy them. But being on a good budget, I rest easy using Pampers. 


I’ve gone threw a full bottle of shampoo and body wash on Nathan already and really liked it! So I got a two pack combo at Costco. I don’t know how it does with long hair, but they do sell conditioner! I also like that it can make a bubble bath! 


The diaper rash cream I bought because I started reading some negative things about Desitin and there wasn’t a huge price difference between the two. It works really well! It settles in its packaging, so I have to shake it up so when I go to use it cream comes out and not just oil. Unfortantly Peyton gets really bad diaper rashes and this doesn’t clear them up. So I do have to use Desitin for the first couple diapers to help her rash and then I can use this after to finish the healing of her poor little bottom. 


The healing balm is amazing! I actually cut my big Prego belly with the end of the diaper rash cream really bad. I put some of the healing cream on it and it fused the cut together with out scabbing! I’ve used it on Nathan a lot with all the scrapes he gets! I also love this because I was told to not use Neosporen on a child under two. So this is the perfect cream for a busy young toddler!


The hand sanitizer spray I’m really excited about. I just recently added this to my collection of the brand, and Nathan loves it way more than me using baby wipes to wipe his hands all the time! It dries really quickly. 


The face and body lotion I like because of the face part. I feel like sometimes Nathan’s face can feel dry and I don’t want to put body lotion on his face! So I love having this option to go to! And the lavender smell on babies is amazing! I do admit that I like the lavender Johnson&Johnson smell the best, but unfortantly Peyton broke out in a rash when I put it on her. The Honest Co. doesn’t give her a rash. 


The baby oil is amazing. I love the pump dispenser and how easy it is to use. I don’t like when oils are messy and this bottle makes it very easy and clean to use/apply. It is expensive for baby oil. Compared to Johnson&Johnson, it is expensive. Peyton broke out in a small rash when I used Johnson&Johnson baby oil on her. I use baby oil for her cradle cap. Works really well! 
What are your thoughts and favorite brands?! 

xoxo kymberly

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Dancing in the Dirty Kitchen. 


My husband got a smart tv for his birthday. It was really a gift to both of us because I can throw YouTube, Hulu, Netflix and Pandora on the TV. Most nights we are listening to Sunday school songs on YouTube. But tonight that was not going to work for my mad tired newborn and loud toddler that wouldn’t let the newborn sleep. 

So for the first time I threw Pandora on the tv. I listen to the station, Jesus Culture Radio on Pandora. It’s perfect for my flustered heart on days like this. 

Days where there is loads of unfolded laundry taking over my couch. Days when I forgot to pull out meat from the freezer. Days when dinner ends up being mac and cheese. Days when I my house is a MESS and the kitchen is disgusting. Days where I feel overwhelmed by all the work that needs to be done. And when my house is super messy I feel overwhelmed because I don’t love to live in a mess. 

But as the pot was boiling the mac and cheese, I just started singing along to Pandora. Then Nathan started singing. I love his little voice. Then we ended up dancing and worshiping in the kitchen and the noodles cooked to long haha. 

It was a great memory for me. His laughter and singing from the heart. His clapping and jumping. His joy! It all put Peyton to sleep! 

I want my kids to remember dancing in the kitchen instead of me cleaning the kitchen. They won’t remember the dishes. They won’t remember the clean unfolded laundry. They won’t remember the graham cracker crumbs under the table… or maybe they will haha… 

But I want them to remember the dancing. The joy. The laughing. The times I was able to put aside all that work, to be present with them. To make memories with them. 

The days can be so long but the years are so short! 

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xoxo kymberly

Coming Up For Air. 

Right now I have both my kids napping. The youngest is slowly waking up, or I would go take a nap also. Today I felt like I needed to use my spare five minutes to write. 

Today I broke. I got to the breaking point from the hectic last few weeks and broke. I just cried as I made Nathan’s lunch. 

I’m so tired. 

And in the exhaustion I can’t think clearly. 

Peyton is 6 weeks old and from the moment she was born she has had something going on with her. Nothing serious, but enough to have prescriptions or X-rays taken. Every week it’s something new and normally the things overlap to where I’m not getting a break to see her fully healthy. I have told some friends that I’m ready for her to be about 6 months old. Out of the newborn age so there is more options on ways to help her out. 

Nathan is 2. He doesn’t like to listen. It drives me insane and to keep from losing my cool, I have to remind myself that he is only two, he just had a new sister, mommy isn’t focused only on him, and we just moved to a new house. He has a lot going on in his little life! 

But today I took about an hour getting Peyton to sleep. I put her down and Nathan ran and slammed the door shut. I was so mad. So mad. It woke her up. I told him for the first time to go to his room. I needed a break. He cried for maybe 4 minutes until he found his 5,687 toys and played. I put Peyton back to sleep and made his lunch. Then tears just fell and I cried a couple minutes to a friend. 

What is this rash Peyton has now? How can I help her? Is it serious? Should I take her to the doctor? Is she okay? Am I crazy? Because I’m so tired, I can’t think clearly. I am mentally and physically exhausted. I find myself praying all day that Peyton is completely healed, for peace in my heart and wisdom. No more contacting her doctor or asking my mom friends the same questions over and over from their experiences. 

I just need to come up for some air. I have been living under a rock trying to figure this all out. Our new home, a wife, mom of two, a sister, and still being a friend to others. 

I’ve had a lot of people ask to help me, and I have taken help from a good amount of amazing women in my life. So thankful for them. But even after they leave or I get off the phone with them, I’m exhausted. 

I learned my worst fear isn’t necessarily bad health, it’s my kids having something wrong and I don’t have the wisdom to know what to do and it becomes worse. 

Crying today helped me. Sitting in silence right now is also helpful. Writing is therapeutic for me. I felt like I came up for air a little today. I actually threw up my hands and said I can’t carry all this. Such a crazy season right now and I am praying I have the right perspective to enjoy the moment because I know this time will go fast. I think I just need to come up for air a little more often and rest in the peace of Christ. 


xoxo kymberly

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